Liam Payne has said that being in One Direction left ‘scars on him’ as he candidly discussed his mental health and ‘low moments’ in a new interview.
The band, which also includes Harry Styles, Zayn Malik, Niall Horan, Louis Tomlinson have been on indefinite hiatus since 2016.
The singer, 29, auditioned for the The X Factor in 2010 when he was placed in the group and has now admitted that he ‘didn’t realise what he signed up for.’
Speaking on Colombia’s W Radio, Liam said that despite being in his ‘worst place’ he has ‘a lot of gratitude’ for his ‘great life’ and job.
He explained: ‘I don’t really know if I knew what I signed up for when I started and I’ve been doing my job since I was 14 years old.’
Liam Payne has said that being in One Direction left ‘scars on him’ as he candidly discussed his mental health and ‘low moments’ in a new interview
Liam added: ‘I’ve been very lucky to hold the job for that long which is great but I do think it definitely left scars on me.
‘You have to unpack a lot of stuff before you start this job. I wouldn’t change a thing now that I am where I am, I’ve kind of made my own sense of why I ended up at this place.
‘It definitely gave me something to say and if I can help anybody out in my position, not so much on the fame side but the things that happened to me before and kind of stop that from happening to somebody else, that would be my life’s dream.
‘It’s a great life and I have a lot of gratitude but there were definitely low moments that I’ll never minimise.
‘It’s just about having the right people around you at the right time and I was lucky to have people to watch my back when I was at my worst place and help me get the help that I need and not everybody is that lucky.
‘So, I’m double grateful to be on the other side of it now and to have something to say and like I said, it might change somebody’s life.’
Earlier this year, Liam opened up about his mental health and revealed doctors diagnosed him with ‘a couple of conditions’ after he spent some time in a wellness clinic in the US last year after hitting ‘rock bottom’.
The singer shared candid Instagram post to his Story in which he said he was having a tough day and family and friends could see he was still struggling.
Throwback: Liam admitted he didn’t know what he signed up for when he auditioned for the The X Factor in 2010 (Louis Tomlinson, Zayn Malik, Liam, Harry Styles and Niall Horan L-R)
Liam described ‘manic’ instances in his life and his difficulty in staying sober during ‘super low’ moments.
In the clip he admitted to having filmed the video numerous times before deleting it, before finally deciding this was the right time to share his story with his fans.
He said: ‘So I mean I filmed a bunch for theses over time and deleted them but I don’t know whether this is the right time.’
‘I know in my last video I mentioned I’d been diagnosed with a couple of conditions and I will not to go into too much detail, but one of them I have is, there’s a lot of manic things in my life which you guys saw.’
He continued: ‘But the other side of it is and that kind of feels like when when I would lose my sobriety in these moments that were super low and I felt like that today.
‘And it’s isolating the two things and seeing them separately and like I know what they are now’.
‘Luckily I have some amazing people around me that kind of look after me but I am sure they can see it in me too that I’m “not really here.'”‘
Honesty: Earlier this year, Liam opened up about his mental health and revealed doctors diagnosed him with ‘a couple of conditions’ after he spent some time in a wellness clinic
He captioned the clip: ‘I’ve filmed this same video about 20 times at different points this year and got too scared to put it out by talking myself out of it’.
‘I’m coming to see how fortunate I am to be in the position I’m in… and I wanna give any of you struggling the gift I was given by sharing some of the things I learned form specialists whilst I was away’.
‘First thing I did everyday was check in and its important you don’t bottle up how you feel. Feeling is one of the amazing gifts we had and I blocked things up so long it made me sick and lash out… notice it, allow it to happen and let it pass through. I hope this helps,’ he concluded.