The pop star spoke candidly about her own gender identity and attraction to women in ‘The Power of Women’ issue of Variety
Billie EilishΒ is opening up about her experience with womanhood after years of being scrutinized over her body and π eπ₯uality.
The superstar, 21, got candid in a new interview forΒ Varietyβs The Power of Women issueΒ about her perception of her own femininity and her attraction towards women.
Eilish, who for yearsΒ almost exclusively wore baggy clothesΒ that concealed her figure, told the outlet that sheβs struggled with her looks and identity because sheβs βnever felt desired or desirable.β
βIβve never felt like a woman, to be honest with you. Iβve never felt desirable. Iβve never felt feminine,” revealed Eilish. “I have to convince myself that Iβm, like, a pretty girl.β
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The βBad Guyβ singer clarified her preferred pronouns, adding, βI identify as βshe/herβ and things like that, but Iβve never really felt like a girl.β
The Grammy winner explained that because she has long had complicated feelings about her own womanhood, itβs led her to feel as if other women donβt like her. βIβve never really felt like I could relate to girls very well,β she shared.
Although Eilish wrestles with that assumption, she admitted that sheβs βattracted toβ other women. βI love [women] so much. I love them as people. Iβm attracted to them as people. Iβm attracted to them for real,” she said.
βI have deep connections with women in my life, the friends in my life, the family in my life,β the singer-songwriter continued. βIβm physically attracted to them. But Iβm also so intimidated by them and their beauty and their presence.β
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As Eilish has faced a great deal of scrutiny surrounding topics like her π eπ₯uality and dating history, which she toldΒ VarietyΒ has been βweird and upsetting,β she has been relatively private about her personal life in the past.
The singer was last romantically linked toΒ Jesse RutherfordΒ of the alternative band The Neighbourhood starting in October 2022. After eight months of dating, a source confirmed to PEOPLE that the two musicians had split in May, but noted they βremain good friends.β
Prior to Rutherford, Eilish dated actorΒ Matthew Tyler VorceΒ for a little over a year from April 2021 to May 2022.Β She alsoΒ opened up about dating and breaking up with Brandon Adams, a rapper who goes by the stage name 7:AMP, in her Apple TV+ documentaryΒ Billie Eilish: The World’s a Little Blurry.
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The βWhat Was I Made For?β singer has previously addressed her frustration with the way the media and listeners have inquired about her π eπ₯uality before.
In a 2021 interview withΒ Elle, Eilish referred to conversations online that sheβs witnessed throughout her career about her style and dating history and interjected by saying, βOr my π eπ₯uality!β
βLike, oh yeah, thatβs everyone elseβs business, right? No. Whereβs that energy with men?β she continued. βI just wanted to make a song once, and then I kept making songs. I never said, βHey, pay attention to my life.ββ